Fuck that. We're all adults here. If buzz wants to act like a stupid cunt child, let him. If ID wants to point and laugh then let him. It's only words. We don't need censorship. People can control themselves. There's not enough of us left for temp bans n suspensions.

Instead of throwing out non-sequiturs & insults, labelling people weak minded, how about you debunk the legitimate grievances raised in that eloquent USA Today editorial??

There's definitely something wrong with me.

I risk losing everything I hold dear to me on a whim or a dumb idea. I've no idea why I do it, why I take advantage/take for granted those people, just to go behind their backs & do stupid/outrageous stuff they wouldn't understand. Hell I don't even understand why I do the things I do anymore.

I make commitments then act like they're an inconvenience & treat them with a total disrespect.

This behaviour can't go on. Another night/day with no sleep. Either my body's gonna give in or my wallet'll run dry.. It's like a race to see what I can destroy more of.
This summer has just been a spiral of solipsism that has taken a rather more sinister & deeper edge this past month & this past week. Even I am outraged at my own behaviour & questioning what I'm doin here. The amount of money I've blown in the first half of this month & what I've squandered it on, is gross & deplorable.. It's gonna be a long weekend.. Hopefully a fun one tho..

Up to greet the dawn.. It never arrived, got rained off.. Tho haven't been to bed yet so technically I'm not up to greet the dawn. I just haven't been down yet.
No sleep last night for first time in years. Not lookin forward to today's activities.. Used to be could pass off a night without sleep on being a surly teenager, or early 20's when it's expected of you.. Now I've no excuse worthy to cover up.. I got high as fuck & stayed up playing videogames & my brain wouldn't shut down, still hasn't. Headed for a crash sometime soon this morning/forenoon.. Gonna enjoy that sleep when it arrives. Richly deserved it'll be.. Sorely missed too. When you miss that natural window for your regular sleep I find it's hard to get that time back, to get into the usual pattern again. A bit like jetlag, prob should try & wait it out til tonight.. Will see tho, if my brain settles & I get the chance to have a power nap I'll take it..